If there is alcohol involved, anything goes. Everything's allowed and fine then, right?

Fcuking no!

Some people wonder, how and why I became the kind of introvert, stay-home, don't party, don't dance person I am.

Just because of evenings like today.

Going out is fine, going out with friends is fun and going out until 5 am., partying and getting to know cool new people is really really fine.

Up to the point where I have to notice that:

a) Persons I have kind of feelings for, seem to have absolutely no interest in me although we were having nice conversations and stuff.

b) Persons I just got to know, which actually are pretty open-minded, cool and fun convince me of things I've sworn to never do in my life, and which I'm having quite a lot of fun with a whole evening/night long just for them to let me drop and fully ignore or forget about me the next moment.

Thus, I ask: How dare women to treat men like that and demand to be treated like...I don't know...goddesses...in return. How dare they? How can they actually expect that?

Don't men have feelings? And can't feelings, no matter if they're those of a man or a woman, can't they be hurt alike?

Atm, I am really, REALLY pissed off, full of all that sh*t and sick of it. And the really sad thing is: The only thing that could calm me down and give me some peace and rest right now, is - of all the possibilities - a women - one I'd have stronger feelings for.

My two possibilities, because there is no such women here: Cry or smash something. I don't wanna do either of it, so I'll basically just bury my anger deep within me. Like I always do.


"World of emotions, gimme back my heart! Instantly! You're not worth of keeping it because you're one of the most despisable things in the world!"